Friday, May 18, 2007


Yesterday my baby girl graduated from Pre-school. She is now considered a kindergartner. They had a big ceremony they walked down the isle each child by their self, then got their diplomas by themselves. They each got t-shirts that the all their friends signed. They had a reception. They made a Dvd of interviews and slide shows with/of the kids. It was so awesome.

I got choked up thinking about the first day I brought her to school. I was such a worried mother. I knew it was good for her to go, but I she was scared to be left. Now all I want is to freeze time. From now on I depend on the public schools to watch her 7 hours a day. I have to trust that God will pick the right teachers for her.

I love her in a way that I could never use words to describe. I know that schools is best for her, but there are times when I want to home school her. I want to keep her.

One thing I think about is that from the moment she was born its been my job to let her go. Every day I am teaching her how to leave me and become her own person. I feel blessed that God has blessed me to do this job. I know that I can't hold on, but it doesn't mean I don't want to.

Thanks to all of you that are apart of my life and hers. Thanks for being a good influence and showing her the love of the world.

a torn mom,

ps. I am trying to load the dvd so you all can see it as well as get the poem the read.


~Lydia~ said...

I'm liking homeschool more and more each day....I don't think it's such a bad thing (not that you said it was a bad thing). Several of my good friends home school their kids. Just some horror stories I hear from public schools leads me down that path. I'm also looking at a part-time private school with the option to home school 2-3 days a week.

3 Men, 2 Ladies & a Hound said...

Congratulations Courtney! It's seem like it was yesterday that you were laying on my ottoman when you were about 6 weeks old! You have grown into a very beautiful and smart girl. I look forward to seeing you grow even more in Kindergarten.